Sadly, it seems like it will be a lonely, lonely Summer, since Raymond probably has to go to summer school, basically, won't be able to hang out with me at all for a month, and when that month finishes, I'll be gone, so it just keeps getting worse! I wanted to get a job near my house, but my mom won't let me! She thinks only perverts work there and whatever :(. This sucks, now I have NOBODY to hang out with, nothing to do except sit at home. So basically, Summer is staring to get bad, and its gonna get worse and worse. And next year's summer, is gonna be horrible too, because for at least ONE MONTH, Raymond will NOT BE IN SAN FRANCISCO. Why should I stay alive? >.< Only thing I might be able to do is play ping-pong with Ding... if he's not busy. But when Joann and Jess found out that Raymond was playing ping-pong with Sally, they're like, thinking bad thoughts, and wondering why he isn't with me. Well, I did let him, so I don't blame him. So, if I played ping-pong with Ding, wouldn't people say the same? Anyways, if Ding is busy, I have nobody to play with, except Sally, but I suck too much.

 

I wonder what he is doing right now, he's not answering me. I hope even when he goes to Summer School, he'll be able to call me a few times everyday. I hope. Aiyo, I don't know how we'd ever go to the same college, considering he goes tutoring and summer school, while I do neither. I seem pathetic compared to the other 4.0 people in our school. I don't even know why I want to apply to those big schools, I know I'm not gonna get in, since I don't do good on standardized tests and stuff. Gosh :( I suck badly.

 

I hope I can endure.